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Spanking and Asperger's Syndrome I am an aspie and a spanko. What that means is that apart from being one of you, someone who is interested in spankings and has been for a long time, I am also diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome, a high-functioning kind of autism. As an author here at the Spanking Library, I would therefore like to tell you my story, to illustrate how my life as an aspie spanko looks. I was diagnosed about five years ago, but I have certainly had Asperger's my whole life, as it's a pervasive developmental disorder. I have had an interest in spanking at least for twenty years, since before the onset of puberty. One of the common aspect of Asperger's is that the individual acquires certain interests which he or she focuses on. For me, spanking is one of these interests. I have others (higher-dimensional geometry, popular science, manga, rules system of Magic: the Gathering, etc.), and it seems to me that all interests that have persisted up to this time are likely to be permanent. I am apparently able to attain superhuman levels of concentration at times, though this is rare. Sometimes this happens when I write stories and the story just clicks into place. Another aspect of the disorder, just as prevalent, involves problems with social interactions. I don't have problems interacting with other people in general, but I don't enjoy big crowds, and especially dislike being part of them. It seems that I have a deep-seated need to be exceptional, special. When reviewing my participation at the Library, I discovered that I have only posted a single comment, and that was on my own story! Partly, it is the desire to be an observer, to not have to change the system needlessly by making changes -- partly the vague, unpleasant feeling that the person whose story I comment on would see me not as a person but just as a part of the crowd of commenters. However, I believe that certain aspects of Asperger's are quite useful for spankos to have. For example, Asperger patients struggle with their emotions. I have seen people who were losing that fight, they were explosive, perhaps even violent, because their emotions controlled them. Others, like me, have gone the other way. I know I used to be pretty violent when angered at elementary school, but as time went by I learned to suppress my emotions, to the point that some of my feelings might have been lost. It's a very long time since I last felt angry. Not being angry, staying calm in all situations, is exactly what responsible spanking is about. If one side gets into trouble because of her (it's always "her" with me) emotions, shouldn't the other be stable? If the spankee is like a wind, shouldn't the spanker be like a rock? There is also a dark side, to be sure. There is a thin line between not being affected by emotions and not caring about them. This is a reason to be vigilant. Sometimes I theorize that I enjoy spanking because it's a way to cause strong emotional reactions in other people -- reactions I can then observe, as I am no longer capable of feeling them myself. Sort of emotional vampirism, if you wish. But, on the other side, I have problems making new contacts and new friends. I have never tried to pick up a girl, for example. I'm not sure if I ever had a normal date. This may be why my stories tend to have girls who, even though they are spankees, are actually the dominant ones. They don't get spanked because they are coerced or physically forced, they get spanked because at a certain level they agree that this is what should happen. They are the actors, the spanker is the one who reacts, and before he spanks, there is a debate. Another thing that Aspies like is rituals. Spankings have lots of rituals, don't they? In fact, they have so many that you can use a different set every time. Baring the bottoms, fetching the implements, corner time... all can be done in many ways. Actually, I enjoy being unpredictable, making every spanking a bit different to keep the spankee on her toes and guessing. Also, I am happy. Each of my interests is more than capable of keeping me happy, so I have a lot of backup if one thing doesn't work out for me. Finally, there is a question of sensory inputs. Sometimes, people with Aspergers are gifted with extraordinarily sharp senses or with a need for sensing. I am very tactile. I like to touch things. When I'm talking to people, I'm always twirling a pen, wringing my hands, playing with something. And a girl's bottom is a wonderful thing to touch, to caress, and to smack sharply. I've been writing stories for about ten years now, but sporadically. Surprisingly enough, I don't actually like to write. I like to think up stories, but typing them out feels like too much of a chore. Therefore, it only happens rarely and sometimes there are long gaps where spanking ceases to be my primary interest and my days are occupied by something else. My day job is to translate books; a fine job for a person who is able to translate obsessively. I write stories in both English and Czech, but strangely enough not the same stories. I can't exactly explain it, but I feel that the language I'm using changes many aspects of the story. The Czech ones tend to be down-to-earth, while the English stories tend to be more fantastic and wild. I'm considering translating my story Maybe One Day into Czech, as it's fairly short and one-shot. Because of my social shyness, I developed a plan to use my stories as a 'lek' of sorts, a display not unlike the bright feathers of a peacock, that signalizes to potential partners that I am here and I am a desirable mate. I am actually not too sure if I am -- in some ways, I might be never truly capable of taking care of myself. I get confused and I prefer to stay in the kingdom of my own routines. Results with exhibiting my work are mixed. While it did attract some ladies interested in a warm bottom, they tended to already have boyfriends. I still spank them, but I am not interested in anything more than that, as I don't wish to cause any problems for the girls or their boyfriends. Frankly, I am not interested in a sexual relationship that wouldn't involve spanking. I am not sure if this is a good thing or not. 24 comments
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