WOW...what a great life account and written in a manner that holds ones attention to the last. I can see the emotions involved and the feelings that go along with revealing this part of one's life and must say it takes a vast amount of courage to submit it for publication.

I have worked with aspie's throughout my career in the social services field in one way or another and know the problems it can create for one in real life. Of all those I know, I do not think one of them would write an article like this for publication.

Well done Fulgur and please continue writing, I have enjoyed your stories in the past and certainly plan on reading them with a new view of the author now in the future. Thank you for being so candid and forthcoming about your life.

This is an excellent article Fulgar and I thank you for your openness about how Aspergers shapes you, both as a person and as a spanko. I am very interested in people and how the mind works and so this was very informative and great for me to read :)

Thanks again!

Very courageous article and highly interesting insight into your life, Fulgur. I always liked your stories and look forward to new ones.

I agree with the others. Wow! What an article. It also hits home, too. I have a cousin who has a daughter who diagnosed as being autistic. When I met her for the first time I knew there was something different about how she acted for being autistic. I told my cousin that they're wrong. She has Asperger's syndrome because she's far too intelligent to be autistic.

She got her license to drive, goes to college, has numerous interests. Sure enough, I was right.

Thanks for this article. I wish you well.

B

Sometimes I feel that Asperger's is the "disorder whose time has come", as it starts to be well-known. Thanks for your responses.

canadianspankee: I think that there are more aspies that would write an article like this, because we don't see the potential dangers we could get into by doing so.

PinkAngel: As a writer, I am also interested in how people's mind works, as that's the main thing to write about! Not being able to always decipher minds of people I talk with doesn't mean that I can't analyze their behaviour later, when appropriate.

KJM: I will try to post some new stories soon, as my schedule and inspiration will permit. I also asked for this article to be included with my stories once new issue of Wellred Weekly comes out.

bendover: It's good you found out. I myself never got a driver's license -- I do not like cars and I do not trust myself with a potentially lethal machinery. We had a talk about this once with my mom -- I ended it by asking "Would you sit in a car that I drove?" She had to admit that she wouldn't... :)

I enjoyed your article Fulgur, I have taught a number of students who were identified as gifted as well as Aspies. There were a few awkward occaisions when other students, usually newly enrolled, did not understand, but generally everyone got along fine. I did enjoy reading of your particular preferences and now I know why I never read any of your comments on Authors pages. And that's OK.
Great article.
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I found this fascinating. Many thanks, Fulgur. You write here with a sensitive understanding of emotions and behaviour that few people, "normal" or not, could achieve.

Now I'm going to look at your stories.

Remember kids, you can't say asperber's without saying ass. :D

Excellent article. I may or may not have asperger's (I've never been tested for it, but I display most of the symptoms). At any rate, I've learned that my social limitations can only rule my life if I decide to let them, and that the kind of people who can't look past my eccentricities are generally not worth being friends with in the first place. Atta' boy.

Interesting article. I already read a few books written by aspies and was always fascinated by the images they use. As Aspies have no idea, what their images will evoke in their readers, they are very often original and unusual. I set your work on my reading list for the library. Your theory about emotional vampirism sounds interesting and quite convincing, but maybe that is true for all sadists, not only for aspies?

Regarding to your view on social interactions I have some different opinions. First I think we don't have a crowd of commenters, but a crowd of non-commenters. The moment someone starts commenting he/she is getting more special and more distinguishable from the crowd. I have no image about the typical reader, but many opinions about the few commenters. So if you want to be special, you should comment.

I think anyway, that commenting feels for all of us just the same as for autistic persons. As we can't confide in body language and face expressions on the net, we all have no idea how the reader will understand our messages, especially with all this different countries and cultures in the library.

Second I am not sure if a relationship between highly emotional women and emotionless men really work well. Mostly it's the man who causes a woman being like the wind, perhaps because the rock is not showing enough empathy. I think living together with an Aspie (or other sorts of social incompetent men, who are not so rare) will function only, if a woman herself is able to rationalise that the man can't understand her feelings and needs and is prepared to be content with it.

Actually, I feel that internet communication is somewhat easier for us on the spectrum. I feel that it's unfair when I can't read nonverbal cues from people, but they still might be able to read mine. On the internet, all have to cope with loss of nonverbal cues -- but we, who have lived without them all our lives, have advantage in that :)

mati, there's lot of truth in what you say. Perhaps my aversion to commenting is more of a reluctance to start further social contacts. This doesn't apply on posting stories or articles like this one, since here I'm speaking to the crowd, not to individuals. Then the members of the crowd who wish to be heard start contact with me, and only then I feel comfortable to reply and converse with them. Very strange, but that seems how my mind works.

Fulgur, this was such an honest and emotional account of your life. I sincerely admire you for your frankness.

I think many of us, although not suffering the difficulties inherent of Aspergers, can relate to many aspects of what you say.

In respect to what Mati said about commenting. This is very true. All commenters here are special as the greater majority fall into the category of non-commenting readers. Another form of vampirism, perhaps!

As with any health condition, if a partner loves you unconditionally, they learn to understand and work around whatever limitations or exceptional qualities you may have. that is how true love works. So don't let having Aspergers hold you back in any way. Genuine people are always understanding of individual differences and if they are not then they are not worth worrying about or befriending in the first place. Embrace your individualities, as you would your kinky spanko side! And always remember that because of your aspergers you actually have more to offer than us more regular spankos. try not to be afraid about interacting and commenting here and don't let aspergers hold you back in any way.. Because of our shared kink we are a pretty approachable and non-judgemental bunch of people here at the LSF. You have my respect for such a brave and honest article, so kudos to you. J x

Thank you so much for sharing with us. I am so impressed that you were able to open your life for us to see. When I was teaching, I taught a seminar class for junior and senior high Gifted and Talented students. There were several who were Aspies. I had most of my students at least an hour a day for 6 years. We worked on a variety of things but, one of the areas of concentration was social needs. You have just described a number of my kids. I can only hope that they have grown to be as happy and successful as you.

I really learned a lot about Asperger's Syndrome from this article. It was very straight-forth and informative. I have never known anyone personally with this; however, I have been aware of it. From what I understand, people with this condition as highly intelligent and talented. Great article. Thanks.

Fascinating! Thank you so much for allowing us to peek into your life and learn so much in the process. So many human conditions that we "diagnose" and think of as impairments are actually opportunities for greatness. That ability that you mentioned for superhuman concentration can have obvious advantages. If we were all "normal" how many fewer great composers would there be? ...and how many fewer great artists? How much great art and how many great inventions have we lost forever because we insist on drugging these people to try to make them fit some analog of "normal"?

I read somewhere that the American west was probably settled by a high percentage of folks whom we would today diagnose with Attention Deficit Disorder. Without these precious, adventurous, inquisitive "abnormal" people who think outside the mental boxes us "normal" people create for ourselves, how different would history be?

Thanks again. This is really an excellent account.

Fulgur, I would like to thank you so much for taking the trouble to write this excellent account of what was, certainly to me, a hitherto unknown situation. Your frankness is impressive and I am sure many of us here have reason for being grateful to you.

WOW - Thanks for a really wonderful article, Fulgur. You are not only courageous, you also write wery, very well.

I am off in a hurry - to read your spanking stories!

Ps: i love what i understand you to say, that your "heroines" are mostly in some manner taking control, to actively ensure that they get the good spanking that they crave. I find that twist of the roles very stimulating. In fiction - and in real life as well.

Thank you for sharing such personal details. I found your account riveting.
I have had a lifelong interest in spanking and have raised a son with high functioning autism (I believe Asperger's syndrome has been eliminated as an official diagnosis) Like many parents of autistic children, I have always wondered if I'm on the autistic spectrum myself. Perhaps my interest in spanking is my "obsession".

I too have been diagnosed with high level Aspergers that I realise I had for over fifty years and did not understand other peoples reasoning on almost any subject. Once it was clear just what I have I believe a lot of my life could have been used better. Stories and adventure are a constant part of my thinking day and night. It does not dilute other thoughts but I believe it makes logic very very clear. I could not call this an illness but a gift, a gift I could have used more often and better.

Fascinating. I learned so much and I thank you.

I found this article really interesting and I too can relate to the subject of commenting.
I was mortified to see on the top of my libarary card "Sluggish Commentator". I feel guilty that I enjoy the stories here but generally don't comment. Not because I dislike them in any way, I just feel awed by the talent of the authors (and some of the other commentators, who seem to psychoanalyse the stories).

Very very interesting, Fulgur. I have advertised in a mainstream adult dating service and met this woman informing me she was an aspie. I did a little research on the net which worried me but having learned what I have from you as well as trailing comments, I intend to delve further into this situation. When she first told me and after a little research, I felt put off and, frankly, a bit afraid of the unknown. You have enlightened me and I appreciate it. I plan to get with her and see where thing go, could be good and I hope so. Thank you ...

After reading your article, I waned time to think before composing a reply. You see, I am also diagnosed as having Aspergers and Learning Disabilities. I was raised in a very backward area. When they determined I had these conditions, they tried to convince my Maternal One to have me committed because I would never be able to learn how to read or care for myself. While I have issues with the Maternal One, I will always be grateful for the fact that she Fought to get me educated. She was a Single parent, a woman no less, in an area where such individuals are discriminated against. Against all odds, I proved my critics wrong and graduated from High School with Honors. I then, again, proved them wrong by succeeding in collage & a Professional School. In large part, this success was due to having Aspergers. I LOVED school. I thrived in it. During my collage years, I discovered a book called the Guide to the Correction of Young Gentlemen. While it has since been proven that the author was fictional, the book had essential advice for me. Frankly, the book had a section dealing with people whose souls did not reflect their physicality. I realized that description fitted me to a T. Everything I valued & longed for & wanted to be was considered both by the norms of the area I grew up to be "feminine" and by physicality (in other words, I longed to go through puberty as a girl, have a child as a mother and go through menopause) but was denied by my physicality and upbringing. The book however, advised that such individuals find a place where they could be their true selves. For me, that has been on-line but, having a high sense of honor and honesty (an aspect of having Aspergers which has adversely impacted my relations with other people in R/L since most of the people I've encountered don't have such attributes) has always compelled me to make sure that the people I talk to know that while I have a feminine soul my body, sadly, isn't. To continue, it was after I graduated that everything went to Hell. Being the first in my family to attend, let alone graduate from a Professional Collage, I had no one to turn to after I got out. For over ten years I have been seeking a Professional career position and despite all my accomplishments I have not been able to find anything. Worse the min. wage positions and up I have found have been soul draining. Having Aspergers as this juncture had hindered me. I've been treated like an idiot, told to be mediocre and not do my best. This has caused me to be depressed and every failure to get a professional career position deepens it. I have a few deep interests but what has kept me afloat has been CP. It is probably due to my Aspergers that my interest is so deep. Misbehavior has near immediate consequences by some one who cares, if not loves, the miscreant. They want the person to have a good life filled with love and value. Due to my own inability to find a Disciplinarian who I could live with and deal with me when Needed (which includes Maint. spankings & stress relief sessions, etc.), my CP work deals with this issue by having "slavery." Now, this isn't the traditional slavery by any means. It's a partnership, like family & it can become family, where the "owner" has a "slave" who Disciplines them while providing security for the "slave." Not sure if I'm describing it properly but, to put it simply, I create worlds I wouldn't mind living in even with the built in problems I create. This is why my work at times seems so complicated. I try and make them as three dimensional as possible. The focus I had when I was a child and in school returns as I write but is sadly lacking when I'm now confronted with the "real world." Sadly though, for a long time I could not write and I'm only starting to do so again. My work I've been posting has been all my old stuff and I'm hoping to post some new before years end. What has helped to bring me out of my funk has been a few Library authors whose work was deep and touched my soul. I'm sorry if this post has been more about me than a commentary on yours but I wanted to give another perspective of one who copes with Asperger’s and the CP "gene.".

An interesting read. Thanks for sharing it with us.

Thank you so much for sharing this insight with us, Fulgur. I applaud your courage for being so open and your ability to explain it so clearly. After reading of your reasons for not commenting, I feel so very honored to have received a rare comment from you on at least one of my stories and lucky to call you a friend.